The unexpected had became real.
This morning I went to one possibly last class of this semester. In my term it surely won't be the last for me but one thing that's for sure is it will be the last for my classmates. The last for big majority of my batch.
Meaning, it will be the last best time we see each other bar examination or, VIVA.
It might be the last time I'll be with them.
Not everyone showed up at the class (as expected) but still a strong 40 something attended. We were entertained by the last group performance (i prefer performance) which turned out a success even though they performed a forum. Why success? Because a vampire girl appeared in the middle of the forum. Brilliant idea.
Then the extreme part. The end-of-class speeches. Every group representatives were asked to give a bit of comments about the performances. And so the speech began...one said that we were great and talented, one said that we are capable of handling pressure, one applaud ourself for the efforts we had poured in, one talked more on the light side, one ....
Lastly it was Prof Yang's turn to give in her speech. She said the typical things that she always said to her students- dreams, hard works and never-give-up attitude. Diamonds. Rough diamonds being polished to brilliant ones. Memories. Enjoy the moments. One thing i really like about her is, she's a great motivator and she cares about us. A bit like Kawato Sensei in Rookies.
After her powerful speech, we had a photography session for all groups. Everyone was smiling, enjoying the moments. Me? Sitting and laughing and joking around with friends but deep inside,it's a rocking sea.
Everyone was relishing those moments since they are going to leave this university soon. They are about to depart from each other. But not me. I'll be here for another quite long period. And so the undesired feel happened- the what ifs?. Again. The questions keep bombarding my mind- What if I...What if I never joined... What if I didn't....?
Well, God knows best.
With a deep breath, I made my way to my SV room. I had decided. Be brave, face him and accept the consequences. It's my own mess, I have to clean it up. Once again my prediction failed. He was not mad at me. He didn't left me out in the cold. He encouraged me. Yes there was a slight of disappointment in his eyes and that's understandable but..to give me assurance and encouragement where other people might had looked down and bad-talking...that's a miracle for me.
I was deeply touched by those two separate events. The last class and the brief meeting with SV.
Yes I admit I made mistakes along the way. Sometimes I was off the road, sometimes I didn't even was around the road. Sometimes I tried too hard, sometimes I didn't even try. But put it all aside, all is not lost. I still have time for a little redemption. It may not be great enough to turn things all around but it's never a waste to give a shot.
Everything happens for a reason. I am what I have done. I know it.
Just like what Freddie sang in These Are The Days of Our Lives
This morning I went to one possibly last class of this semester. In my term it surely won't be the last for me but one thing that's for sure is it will be the last for my classmates. The last for big majority of my batch.
Meaning, it will be the last best time we see each other bar examination or, VIVA.
It might be the last time I'll be with them.
Not everyone showed up at the class (as expected) but still a strong 40 something attended. We were entertained by the last group performance (i prefer performance) which turned out a success even though they performed a forum. Why success? Because a vampire girl appeared in the middle of the forum. Brilliant idea.
Then the extreme part. The end-of-class speeches. Every group representatives were asked to give a bit of comments about the performances. And so the speech began...one said that we were great and talented, one said that we are capable of handling pressure, one applaud ourself for the efforts we had poured in, one talked more on the light side, one ....
Lastly it was Prof Yang's turn to give in her speech. She said the typical things that she always said to her students- dreams, hard works and never-give-up attitude. Diamonds. Rough diamonds being polished to brilliant ones. Memories. Enjoy the moments. One thing i really like about her is, she's a great motivator and she cares about us. A bit like Kawato Sensei in Rookies.
After her powerful speech, we had a photography session for all groups. Everyone was smiling, enjoying the moments. Me? Sitting and laughing and joking around with friends but deep inside,it's a rocking sea.
Everyone was relishing those moments since they are going to leave this university soon. They are about to depart from each other. But not me. I'll be here for another quite long period. And so the undesired feel happened- the what ifs?. Again. The questions keep bombarding my mind- What if I...What if I never joined... What if I didn't....?
Well, God knows best.
With a deep breath, I made my way to my SV room. I had decided. Be brave, face him and accept the consequences. It's my own mess, I have to clean it up. Once again my prediction failed. He was not mad at me. He didn't left me out in the cold. He encouraged me. Yes there was a slight of disappointment in his eyes and that's understandable but..to give me assurance and encouragement where other people might had looked down and bad-talking...that's a miracle for me.
I was deeply touched by those two separate events. The last class and the brief meeting with SV.
Yes I admit I made mistakes along the way. Sometimes I was off the road, sometimes I didn't even was around the road. Sometimes I tried too hard, sometimes I didn't even try. But put it all aside, all is not lost. I still have time for a little redemption. It may not be great enough to turn things all around but it's never a waste to give a shot.
Everything happens for a reason. I am what I have done. I know it.
Just like what Freddie sang in These Are The Days of Our Lives
"No use in sitting and thinkin' on what you did, when you can lay back and enjoy it through your kids. Sometimes it seems like lately - I just don't know. Better sit back and go with the flow,."
These Are the Days Of Our Lives- Queen
Sometimes I get the feelin'
I was back in the old days - long ago
When we were kids when we were young
Things seemed so perfect - you know
The days were endless we were crazy we were young
The sun was always shinin' - we just lived for fun
Sometimes it seems like lately - I just don't know
The rest of my life's been just a show
Those were the days of our lives
The bad things in life were so few
Those days are all gone now but one thing is true
When I look and I find I still love you
You can't turn back the clock you can't turn back the tide
Ain't that a shame
I'd like to go back one time on a roller coaster ride
When life was just a game
No use in sitting and thinkin' on what you did
When you can lay back and enjoy it through your kids
Sometimes it seems like lately - I just don't know
Better sit back and go with the flow
Cos these are the days of our lives
They've flown in the swiftness of time
These days are all gone now but some things remain
When I look and I find no change
Those were the days of our lives - yeah
The bad things in life were so few
Those days are all gone now but one thing's still true
When I look and I find
I still love you
I still love you
-End of story-
6 comments:
tersentuh dowh bace entry ni...setiap berlaku ada hikmah
haha, aku dah boleh accept dan toughen up. memang niat nak bagi tacing pun.hahahhah.
oho..sedey~
trase cm dulu2,perpisahan mse skolah,mse mtrik..
well,lagi 2 tahun baru akan merasa mende ni...
sey o slamat berjuang sem depan!
hahaha, selamat bejuang gak untuk ko. make sure lagi 2 tahun. jangan tambah2.
hehe.. keep it up k. jgn mengalah dengan dugaan yang ALLAH beri. semua org ade halangan dlm mencapai kejayaan.. hidup bkn sje kena berjaya di dunia.. tapi di akhirat jgn dilupa.. :) be strong for another one year k.. you can do it..!
haha, tq!
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