Always

Some of the things that I had learnt in the past 2 months.

Socializing.
I admit that I am a bit immature in this part. I, should never- ever label every new girls/ boys that I met as same as my regular other friends. It was...childish to do so. Everyone of us is special and different. Yes they may shine the same aura as our other friends but that was the outer surface. Their style, their social life, their limits and habits are still yet unknown. How could I made easy assumptions?

Working life.
To be honest, I really feel out of depth in this part. They are in...different world and level. Their scope of conversation's topics are a bit off to me. Just, another level. Different mindset and thinking way maybe. Certainly I had not reached it yet. Mungkin sebab diorang semua dah ada family kot?

Love.
Nothing much. Just getting more confused than ever. Getting more (possibly) false hopes. Doesn't matter, cause I still believe in my brother's advice. Flirting? No. Who am I to flirt around?

Family
Yes this is good. I started to learn and understand deeper each of our role. Still have the feelings that I had not done enough, but still trying. Not to forget, the role of Qaisara Sofea. She really add something new to our family as wholly. Very cute little baby girl, just can't get enough of her. Yeay!

Sports
I am getting the love of basketball back in my heart again. Thanks to my friends at Taman Rimba, they really are nice people. Though I move heavily and extremely slow, at least I have something to look forward whenever evening come. Come on!!!

And for the conclusion...K-Pop is absolute plastic and fake. Enough said.

-Qaisara Sofea-




-End of story-

My Best Friend

(a sunny day, working freely)

When everything is wrong I'll come talk to you
You make things alright when I'm feeling blue

You are such a blessing and I wont be messing
With the one thing that brings light to all of my darkness

You're my best friend
and I love you, and I love you
Yes I do

There is no other one who can take your place
I feel happy inside when I see your face
I hope you believe me
Cause I speak sincerely
and I mean it when I tell you that I need you

You're my best friend
and I love you, and I love you
Yes I do

I'm here right beside you
I will never leave you
and I feel the pain you feel when you start crying

You're my best friend
and I love you, and I love you
Yes I do

You're my best friend
and I love you, and I love you
Yes I do
Yes I do...
Yes I do

-End of story-

Saya Rasa Saya

Saya rasa saya ni unik. Atau pelik. Atau aneh.

Sebabnya, saya seorang yang gilakan permainan game electronik tak kiralah ianya dari consoles mahupun pc dan arked sekalipun. Susah benar nak jumpa yang se-species dengan saya. Dalam UKM pun, ada lah sorang dua yang saya tahu minat gaming. Itupun tak setegar saya. Any recent PC games, you name it. Kemungkinan besar saya dah main. Hebat bukan?

Sebabnya, saya ada taste music yang rare kalau dibandingkan dengan orang lain. Orang lain kebanyakannya dengar radio, saya pula dengar Radio Gaga. Kawan- kawan saya dengar lagu- lagu Lady Gaga, Beyonce, Fall out boys, Stacy, Mila, Syahir. Saya? Kejadahnya dengan semua itu. Step in Queen, Marylin Manson, Blur, Suede, Weezer, Butterfingers, Def Gab C, Search. Oh lupa nak mention yang dari Timur pulak. X Japan, Luna Sea, Larc~en~ciel. Pernah dengar tak semua tu? Hahahahaha.

Bieber? Pergi mampus. K- Pop? HAHAHAHAHA.

Sebabnya, di kala semua orang sedang gilakan drama Melayu dengan fenomena 'gadis melayu ayu baik anggun innocent sweet', saya langsung tak terasa tertarik mahupun nak ambil tahu. Habis keluar tajuk perbincangan Nur Kasih dan Nora Elena bilamana ada gadis- gadis di sekeliling. Saya? One Piece anime. Usoppe!!

Sebabnya, lelaki lain yang sebaya semua hampir kesemuanya dah ada gf, saya masih lagi tiada. Oh tiada masalah sangat dari aspek itu. Tapi, selalu saja saya dengar keluhan mereka. Apa yang mampu? Pasang telinga dan ambil buat pedoman.

Sebabnya, orang lain semua pergi ke kelas dengan berpakaian kasual dan rileks. Saya? Tak sah kalau tak pakai kasut hitam 'keletuk- keletuk'. Kedatangan saya ke kelas diberi hint dengan bunyi dari jauh itu. Kepulangan? Juga sama.

Sebabnya, most of my friends are handphone addict. MOST OF THEM can't accept a RM100 handphone as their primary, let alone sole handphone. Mungkin malu kepada gadis- gadis dan jejaka- jejaka? Hmm, Tuhan saja yang tahu.

Sebabnya, orang kata kalau bila dah dekat dengan exam maka korbankanlah apa saja tetapi tidak bagi saya. Ada satu yang saya susah sangat nak korbankan- football. Esok pagi exam paper pukul 8.30. Malam ini Liverpool match pukul 12. Tak ada masalah!!! Lelaki mungkin mampu memahami, perempuan mungkin mukjizat jika memahami.

Jadi, saya rasa saya ini something different. Different positif atau negatif, bukan kuasa saya untuk jadi hakim. Tapi seronok juga, dan tak seronok juga kadang- kadang.

Biasalah, dunia itu bulat.

Religion and Video Games.

Korang semua ni peminat tegar Facebook kan? Hari2 online FB kan? Bagus!! Kalau macam tu kompem korang tahu yang baru2 ni ada artikel dari blog somebody yang isinya super duper menarik perhatian aku. Artikel dia bukan pasal Osama mati ke, teori konspirasi ke. Itu semua Blog Serius dah cover full.

Ini artikel pasal video2 game yang menghina Islam. Kononnya ada beberapa video game yang dikenalpasti ada guna certain decorations/designs/graphics yang menghina Islam. Persoalannya, betul ka?

Rewind balik masa first time isu ni jadi panas. Bagi aku panas gak ar, haha. First time isu ni kuar adalah dalam paper kesayangan Melayu kita- Metro. Ni catchline dia.

Stylo. First time aku baca memang berkerut dahi aku. Habis semua sel2 otak dan kudrat terpaksa dikerah untuk mengingat kembali. " eh ada ka pintu kaabah?", " kat mana ha kalimah Allah?", "12 pintu? 12 stage kot.."

Hahahahahaha. Ok let me make it clear. Aku ni gamer. Gamer paling tegar. Sejak aku berumur 4 tahun aku dah mula main game. Dari zaman game 16-bit sampai la ke next generation macam sekarang. So korang cakap lah game apapun, most probably aku pernah main. Paling tak pun maybe aku pernah dengar.

Jadi, disebabkan aku gamer tegar, maka korang boleh la expect yang aku akan bias, macam bakal defend game2 ni kan? Yes rite baby!!! Tapi aku tak defend lah cara membabi buta. Hm...bacalah!! Iqra'!!!

First sekali yang aku nak tegaskan di sini- reason aku main game. Kalau tanya budak kecik pun jawapan dia senang gila- sebab seronok. Kalau tanya budak besar sikit- sebab nak isi masa lapang. Kalau tanya aku pulak- sebab nak tambah pengetahuan, sebab nak control satu movie interaktif, sebab cantik, sebab nak belajar, sebab nak buka minda, sebab nak berhibur. Bagi korang yang bukan gamer, amat sukar untuk korang faham dan terima reason2 aku. Sesukar untuk orang biasa memahami kenapa mat2 pancing sanggup berjam2 tunggu kat tepi tasik semata2 nak tangkap ikan. Maybe lagi tepat, sebab inilah passion kami.

Berbalik pada topik asal. Penghinaan dalam game.

Ok soalan pengetahuan am. Pernah dengar game Command and Conquer Generals? Yang gadis2 memang pakat dak ah jawapan. Yang laki2 ni. Mesti at least pernah dengar nama kan? Korang tau kan dalam game tu ada 3 sides kita boleh pilih iaitu USA-China- GLA? GLA tu yang menarik. GLA stands for Global Liberation Army. Erti kata lain, mereka adalah Al- Qaeda.

Player boleh main single player campaign bagi setiap side. USA China GLA semua ada campaign tersendiri. Betapa jahanamnya developer game tu, diorang buatkan GLA nampak sangat barbaric dan lekeh.Hahahahahaa. Weapon semua klasik. Untuk AA vehicle cuma tempek gattling gun kat lori ikan ja. Askar semua pakai serban. Standard weapon adalah AK-47. Special mass weapon diorang? Cuba teka.

Pandai. WMD. SCUD launcher babe. Antara infantry yang ada- angry mob, suicide bomber, RPG trooper. Bila infantry mati commander interface akan kata "our brothers have fallen." Tak deja-vu ke di situ? Suicide bomber tu ayat dia adalah- "I will die for our cause!!" Pekerja yang bina base- first upgrade adalah provide shoes!!! Even headquarters adalah masjid. Tengok betapa hinanya Islam diorang buat. Kan? Ke tidak?

My all time favourite gaming heavy weapon- SCUD Launcher

Then cuba pakai USA side. Teknologi diorang memang mind boggling punya level. Satellite, Particle Cannon, automatic missiles, stealth detectors, powerful air force, bla3~~ Nak lagi bengang? Tank Paladin, ayat dia bila kita tekan - "Protecting the people/ To serve and to protect." HAHAHHAHAHA.

Terasa ke?

Ada lagi. Stronghold Crusader. Game based on Crusade War. Kristian lawan Islam. Mula- mula aku main, aku bajet akan ada 2 sides singleplayer lah. Ceh harapan. Hanya ada campaign pihak Crusade je. Pastu overall campaign dia memang tunjukkan Crusaders ni baik-baik dan hati mulia. Celaka. Kalau nak pakai tentera Muslim pun boleh, tapi dalam skirmish je lah. Dan bila main, sila tahan perasaan amarah. Leader- leader Muslim semua muka kejam- kejam, nama pun culprit-culprit semuanya. Army dia jangan cakap ah, ada 2-3 unit yang memang sungguh dishonorable method cara serangan dia. Ada ka patut, hanya mampu bakar bangunan ngan menggunakan torches?

At times, it looks a bit messy

Tuan-tuan dan puan-puan, itu baru dua video game yang seingat aku ada unsur penghinaan yang jelas dan terang. Aku percaya banyak lagi yang ada unsur macam tu, cuma aku tak ingat mahupun terlepas pandang.

-nanti ada part 2, panjang sangat pulak-

Disheartening

You know, there are certain things that can keep disturbing you. though they are small matters, but the smaller the more kick you get rite?

To start with..

1) wake up early everyday only to rush later when there's only 15 minutes from 8 am. Morning rush.

2) you know her. everyday you meet her. and you sent friend request through Facebook. With pure innocent intention just to befriend with her. but days passes, no respond. and everyday you see in front of your eyes- she opens facebook. then she acts like nothing happen. understand what i mean/ think?

3) you work in a new and unfamiliar community. you enjoy it very much. however your colleagues are not so...'friendly.' you feel neglected, oftenly left behind. as if you are nothing. a ghost. that can be feel but impossible to touch. you try to communicate, but you can feel that they are not interested. answering for the sake of answering.

4) back-talking.back- stabbing. farkher. this one is typical malay girl characteristic. gossip girl. sesunggunhnya ia amat annoying bila ianya ditujukan pada diri anda walhal anda langsung tak menyakitkan hati mereka.

And the most annoying scenario-

When all 4 criteria happen to me. Recently.

But all is well. I'd gone through this before. No reasons why this will spell armageddon to me. Nothing shall stop me.

-End of story-