This Is Ourselves...Under Pressure!!

Once again I have to make Under Pressure as my theme song for the next 3 weeks. Why? The reason is simple- i am greatly and deeply under pressure for these coming weeks. Why so?

Because I'm having a killing style examination date.

Killing style? Which style? Assasination? Decapitation? Guillotine judgement?

No, suffocation is better. With poisonous gas that kills slowly but surely, to put it precisely.

Ok, imagine this. You have examination for 8 major papers.

Wow!! 8 major papers? Are you crazy? (well those are my friends first honest impression)

Haha, hold on. There's more. For the date, it is very beautifully ordered. It starts on 25, 26, 27, 28, 29, 30, 31 and ends on 2nd Nov.

****, Damnit!! You are doomed! (again, those are my friends first honest impression)

Hey!Hey!Hey!

This is the most ridiculous examination date I had ever seen in my whole life. Aaaa...we students are human that have a crazy little thing called 'mood swing' which cannot be found in robots or machines.

Want to know the speciality of mood swing? Alright..example here. A girl who had just clashed with her boyfriend will definitely has no feeling/ drive/ mood/ desire to study for 2 or 3 days. Worse, maybe for the whole week. Least to say, a human mind cannot work continuously for 2 or 3 days without a rest.

And you cannot afford to rest when you have approximately 8-12 hours left for your next paper.

Hahahahaha...

Lord I need your guidance. And thank God you gave me a bit of relief with a little bit of inspiration and entertainment in the form of Queen and Freddie Mercury.

"Insanity laughs, under pressure we're cracking!!"
-Queen : Under Pressure

A Series of (fill in the blanks) Events Experienced by Ibrahim

Khamis, 14 Oktober 2010

Hari ini rasa puas, banyak benda telah berjaya disetelkan. Kelas la, assignment la, makan la..bagus. Lepas tu gerak gi Bank Islam cawangan sebelah 7-E area Shell pasar malam tu. Waktu nak masuk, nampak sorang budak laki dalam umur darjah 5-6 gitu tengah berdiri kat depan pintu masuk bank. Bila aku selisih ja, dia kata "abang beli kismis bang, murah je 1 rm1"

Aku cakap taknak, masuk dan terus cucuk duit. Bila nak kuar semula terasa nak beli kismis tu. Sambil beli tanya kat budak tu.

"ko darjah berapa ni?"
"darjah 6 bang"
"kira UPSR dah habis la? camne ok?"
"ok la jugak..tapi dapat tak bagus sangat trial dulu"
"berapa tu?hm?"
"saya dapat 1A, 2B, 1C"
"lagi satu?"
"satu lagi D, tu bahasa Inggeris"

bila dah dapat duit baki, aku tanya lagi,

"ni ayah mintak tolong jual kat sini ke?"
"ye bang"

.....aku terfikir kejap. Ni budak laki Melayu, tolong ayah dia berniaga pada waktu sekolah (time tu 1245). Hm...pastu result dia pulak. Hm..bukan nak banggakan yang aku masuk UKM kat sini aku top ke apa, tapi kalau dah UPSR pun goyang, yang kemudiannya nanti macam mana?

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Jumaat,15 Oktober 2010

Hari ini abang aku datang khas dari Klang (padahal selalu dia datang, a very good brother). Dia sampai je, kami terus gerak gi Bangunan Biologi nak jumpa dengan seorang relative. Woh..tak sangka aku pangkat dia besar sungguh..gerun aku dengan beliau.

Dalam malam gi Alamanda tengok cerita Buried. Superb punya movie tapi audience keliling aku macam haram. Depan aku ada 3 orang India tak habis2 cakap, kuat pulak tu. Pastu bunyi henfon x nak silent. Bodo punya orang. Macam dia sorang ada henfon. Bahlol.

Awek sebelah kiri aku pulak (bersama2 6,7 orang kawannya) tak habis2 bising dan mengeluh. "Takkan ni je kot ceritanya?"
" eh boring r..dalam keranda je.."
" ko ar yang nak tengok sangat cerita ni.."
" eh jom tengok the other guys.."

...aku rasa macam nak tarik je awek tu gi belakang pastu belasah dia puas2. Takda otak punya pmpuan, kalau nak tengok yang action2 ke, komedi ke BACA LA SINOPSIS CERITA DULU. Dah sah2 kalau ikut cover poster pun tunjuk mamat dalam keranda dengan lighter dan klasifikasi thriller, ko nak expect apa lagi bai? Bodo nye pmpuan. Tak belajar nye budak.

Nasib baik dia kuar dalam 45 minit sebelum movie habis.

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Sabtu, 16 Oktober 2010

Hari ni hari legend aku. Study kat Library dari jam 11 pagi sampai 5 petang. Memang aku rasa aku sangat legend time tu. Habis je kul 5 lebih, terus pecut motor gerak g...MINES!!! Oh my God..I love Mines. Ada semua yang aku suka. Kedai buku, kedai komputer, kedai cd games, kedai barang bilik aku, karaoke, boling, wayang..dan semestinya SUBWAY..

Sampai je, terus g kedai SUBWAY. Amoi yang tukang serve tu pun dah cam aku. "U ni makan sini tak penah setengah, hehe" Memang kalau ada sistem tebus point, nescaya aku dah boleh menang motor.

Bila dah dapat subway ku, duduk dan makan terus. 2 orang peminta derma datang kat aku, bukannya tok arab, pakcik kolar putih, makcik ber-anak tiga mahupun couple sweet di sekitar aku, tapi aku jugak. Barangkali muka aku tak cukup ganas? Hahaha.

Pastu gerak gi kedai game, tanya pasal game yang baru beli minggu lepas yang tak leh nak install. Apek kedai tu pulak dengan muka se-emo mungkin dan ayat se-moody mungkin melayan aku. Aiya,..all you need is a smile la apek..sekali ko senyum dah buat pelanggan ko rasa appreciated, buatkan dia nak datang lagi.

Disebabkan apek tu, aku dah decide nak pi kedai sebelah saja la lepas ni. Padan muka lu.

Pastu, bila jalan2 nak balik, nampak satu couple. Fuh aweknya lawa gila~~kalau aku jadi balak dia tu, kompem aku jalan sambil menangis kegembiraan bersyukur kerana dapat awek se-cun itu.

Tapi..bila tengok balik ragam2 kawan2 aku yang berpasangan ni, banyak sungguh pantang larang diorang. Tak boleh keluar selalu la, x boleh kuar ngan lain jantina la, tak boleh kuar tanpa dapat kebenaran si 'suami'-to-be la, pastu si bf kena belanja si gf la, kena amik dan hantar dia la, pastu kena kerap tepon/sms la..tu tak kira gaduh lagi. Nasib baik aku single, suka hati aku nak buat apa, wahahahahha!

Buat masa sekarang, ad satu benda saja yang betul2 buatkan aku excited gila. Video games. Meaning- pc games, ps3 dan X BOX360 punya games. Itulah chenta aku sekarang. Dan aku suka chenta aku itu.

Ini Rumahku

Mustapha ada sebuah tempat lepak .Rumah yang kecil. Ruangnya tidaklah besar, tetapi tidaklah kecil.

Dahulu, Mustapha dan rakan-rakannya selalu berkumpul di rumah itu. Bergurau senda, kutuk mengutuk,bermain bersama, kongsi cerita bersama, bercintan- cintun (ada dua rakan Mustapha ye, bukannya Mustapha)...semualah! Memang sangat bermakna rumah itu buat Mustapha.

Tapi sayang, lama kelamaan kawan-kawan Mustapha makin sibuk dengan hal masing- masing. Mustapha juga tak terkecuali..Makin lama makin ditinggalkan rumah itu. Kadang2 mereka berkumpul bersama di rumah itu, tapi perasaannya sudah tak sama. Entah, tapi itulah apa yang dirasakan Mustapha. Mungkin kawan-kawannya juga sama, mungkin tidak.

Tapi satu hari, Mustapha dapat tahu yang rumahnya itu akan akan menerima penyewa baru. Mahu- tak mahu Mustapha tetap kena terima orang- orang baru itu. Mustapha sedar, yang dirinya bukanlah tuan rumah itu. Dia hanyalah menumpang pada nama anak saudara tuan rumah itu.

Sejenak itu, Mustapha sedar yang rumah itu tak akan sama lagi.

Gelak tawa, kutuk mengutuk tetap ada, tetapi sudah tak sama.

Rumah itu sudah dijadikan hak perkongsian bersama.

Mustapha kecewa.

A Lion is a Lion, a Kitten is a Kitten

Hidup ini pelbagai.

Berikut adalah beberapa quotes2 yang aku rasa aku ingat sampai sekarang. Mungkin sampai masa depan?

"Is..aku takut nak tegoq hang, muka hang time tu (study) macam nak marah oqang ja aku tengok. takut aku." - Nadiah Ghazali, 2006


"Akak, takut la nak tengok dia, muka garang sangat"
-adik2 junior PureChemistry berkata pada CtDja, 2010


"Nak amik gambar, tapi...macam marah je"
-sekumpulan kawan2 PureChemistry, 2010


"Iskandar, why are you looking at me like a tiger waiting to strike its prey?"
- My English teacher in KMJ, 2007


"Muka abang Is ni bengis..."
-Wawa Chan, 2010


"Say-0 cuba hang senyum sikit!!? Muka macam nak pukui orang je!"
-Wawa DOT, 2009


"Pakcik nak berapa? kalau saya bagi yang dah cucuk boleh?"
-gadis penjual pedal ayam, 2010


"Mana isteri? Ada datang?"
-Mr John Doe waktu majlis tunang sepupu aku, 2010


"Hang qeja kat mana? Slalu mai sini, qajin hang"
-anonymous waktu rehat2 lepas main basketball, 2006

Dan banyak lagi sebenarnya. Aku sendiri pun dah tak ingat. Ramai orang kata aku muka garang, susah senyum, menakutkan(?), moody, tua, dah kawin, bla3...

Haahahahhahaha, tak ape, aku tak marah dan tak kecik hati pun. Tuhan jadikan sebegini, aku bersyukur. Tak ada siapa yang nak saman aku pun.

Tapi sebenarnya seronok apa begini. Boleh merasa disalah anggap sebagai cikgu ketika ssdalam bilik guru di matrikulasi dulu. Boleh tengok perubahan wajah gadis2 yang lalu selisih, dari bergelak tawa dengan kawan sebelah terus tunduk pucat bila tengok aku. Macam nampak hantu pun ada.

Korang ada camtu? Wahahahhaahhahaaa!!!

Warkah (aftermath)

People say that everything in this world has it's own contradictory aspect. Everything that is positive oriented will have the b- side which is negative oriented. Everything is set in pair. Nothing stands alone.

A black is matched with white. Good is the inverse of bad. Cool is the nemesis of hot. Ugly is the
antithesis of pretty.

Dr Jekyll is the gentleman. Mr Hyde is the beast. But it is still the same man.

Mustapha is the him. Ibrahim is the same him. They are like Yin and Yang, completing each other forming a unique personality of a man. Of a single man.

Mustapha might be the dark sided of him. The one who whines, who complains, who feels incompetent and to some extent useless maybe. He feels he is the inferior of everyone. He sees everyone else as a better person than him.

He wish he is somebody else.

Ibrahim is the direct antithesis of Mustapha. He loves his life. He appreciates what he owns. He is thankful to God for what he is. He didn't whine, he didn't feel inferior, he didn't feel useless. He knows that he has weaknesses that are repairable and permanent but he lives on with those things.

He loves himself, confident and proud to be himself.

Men are these creature. Men are always seeking for excuses and scapegoats for things that do not happen as they want it to be. Men are whiners at times.

Now, who are we to question God's judgement and gifts? Do we have the guts to be called as human if we think we are not equally gifted amongst us?

No we don't. We don't have the virtue to do so. We realize and understand the uniqueness and wonder of every person but still at times we complain. At times we feel unfair. After all, we are just fragile human. Human who tends to believe what he wants to see, who tends to see what he wants to see.

So, think and see ourselves as a man. A true man. A man with virtue, with a philosophy that works and toughen up ourselves. We will never be perfect, a hot-tempered man will still has that characteristic till his very last breath even though in little resemblance but we'll never change if we don't try to change.

Accept our weaknesses and utilize our strength. Improvisation is a continuous process that happen to us throughout our brief spell in this world. The main question is- are we ready to embrace it? Are we ready to accept our weaknesses and strength and move forward?

Well, Mustapha and Ibrahim feel so.